OMG why on earth didn’t I walk away so long ago.
EVERYTIME we broke up we would end up back together.
I’d say to him “There are times when I really do not like you, times I really want to walk away forever and never see you again, but you are like a drug, I just keep coming back over and over”
His reply “SNAP”
But now I know our reasons were poles apart. He kept coming back, not because he loved me, but because he missed the buzz of watching him destroy me.
NOW I THINK HE HAS HIS SIGHTS FIRMLY N MY DAUGHTER AGED 19, I FOUND OUT LAST NIGHT FROM HER THAT SHE HAS BEEN TO HIS HOUSE LAST WEEK, OMG I CAN’T EVEN TELL YOU HOW THIS FILLS ME WITH SHEER PANIC AND FEAR………….
SICK F*****
Outside The Box 
May 23, 2014 at 1:12 PM
Su, I have enjoyed following you and our exchanges through comments. I wanted to recognize you and other advocates against abuse on my blog with a nomination for the Brave Heart award. If you would like to accept the nomination or simply read my post you can go to the link below for more information. You help us by sharing your story and a wealth of information on the pitfalls and pain of loving a narcissist. I do hope your daughter doesn’t fall into the trap. I know you won’t let her. -Kindest Regards, Daniel
http://dwhinson56.wordpress.com/2014/05/23/the-brave-hearts/
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May 23, 2014 at 1:18 PM
Ah bless your heart Daniel, thank you so much. Oh wow, I really don’t feel worthy but I would like to graciously accept your award. I’m unsure how the award thing works but thank you so much. You’ve brightened my day which is lovely and most welcome. How are you doing my friend? The YouTube clip you posted of the man with the sharp knife, is that you? Kindest regards Su
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May 23, 2014 at 1:29 PM
Oh Lord, what do I do if I don’t know 12 bloggers who’ve been abused lol? My brain has just gone into cognitive meltdown. Am I allowed to take my time to get my head around it all please? Thank you my friend. Su x
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May 23, 2014 at 1:38 PM
Dear Su, take all the time you need. I actually took more than a week to get my post together. Take months if you like. The beauty of how these awards work is how we make connections to others through the process. We strengthen and grow our community of bloggers in this way. I am doing well and hope the same for you. Yes, you glimpsed the old Centurion and Willy Nilly in the video. An old Army buddy did the filming. In the mean time – Blog on! Your message brings us all awareness and healing through your struggle to come to terms with the pain the narcissist inflicted, still inflicts. *Warm hugs* -Daniel
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May 23, 2014 at 10:52 PM
Willy Nilly You couldn’t chose a better candidate for this award. Su has been fighting against abuse since I have known her. No one does more to aid others who have been abused either. So great choice
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May 24, 2014 at 1:17 AM
Sue, Daniel nominated me too. Oh Sweetie, take your time. What I am going to do is leave it open to all who are following me who have been abused and who are pulling their lives together to take the award. I didn’t realize what your blog is all about, until now. I am following you. I really hope my Petals is ministering to you in ways that only flowers and Love can. Peace, friend. Amy
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May 25, 2014 at 4:42 AM
I couldn’t agree more. Su is very special and gives so much.
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May 25, 2014 at 4:45 AM
We connect with this little picture and simple words, brave heart, and are stronger for it. Nice to see you here as well, Amy!
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May 25, 2014 at 12:36 PM
Thank you, Daniel. (smile)
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May 25, 2014 at 8:29 PM
Reblogged this on Mind Chatter and commented:
Scary but real!
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May 26, 2014 at 6:01 AM
Thank you so much for re logging my post. Kindest regards Su x
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